O kids!

Every day I get up, feed Sean, feed Lexi and nick, then feed myself. Then I put Sean down for a nap, try to entertain Lexi, clean up after Lexi, get Lexi some food because she didn't eat what I gave her, put Lexi down get Sean up, feed him again, etc etc. 

It's so hard for me to take time for myself when I'm always trying to take care and keep my family happy. 

I don't always have my nails done, my hair is usually in a bun or pony, and I'm lucky if I get to do my heavier makeup routine. 

I love to be pampered, and every now and then I like to buy me some new things to make me feel better. 

Even though I've got chipped nails, minimal makeup on, and sweat on my forehead I wouldn't change it for anything. 

Being a mom has changed me, made me a better person, challenged me and shaped me into who I am. I know it's not over, far from seeing as we want 4 kids but I seriously can't wait to see who I am ten, twenty, fifty years from now. 

Don't believe those that tell you life was better without kids cause that's not true. Ya life was easier, we would have way more money saved, but it is so worth it. 

Loving who I am In the moment I am in now

You know the feeling you get when you're looking through Facebook and you happen to come along someone you went to high school with who you didn't particularly like, or people who didn't even know you existed? For me this happens all the time. You find someone and end up stalking their page and a half hour later you find yourself thinking about what it would have been like to be their friend because they look like super sweet people, people who you could talk to, people who you could hang out with. 

To give you a little background I hated high school, I mean really HATED it. I had some good times, and met good people don't  get me wrong. What I'm saying is, if I could go back and change it I totally would. I wouldn't change situations, I would change me. I was so emotionally not there that it ruined my whole experience, I did that to myself. 

I chose to be that person, ya I wasn't the prettiest girl in school, And was in no shape to be a cheerleader, I didn't stick up for myself, which led me into a self inflicted  depression. 

I could have chose not to listen to those who made fun of my weight, spit on me, and talked behind my back. But most importantly I could have chose to be happy, to not judge others that judged me, to say something to the person who spit on me and called me fat. I could have been a better friend to those who did love and care about me in those times where I thought I was alone. 

I got so lost in thinking about everything that was wrong with me and comparing myself to those who I thought had perfect lives that I didn't love and appreciate what I could have had. 

If I could tell my younger self anything, I would tell her to love herself, to take advantage of these fun years, to live every day trying to serve others, and to love all those around her no matter what kind of person they are. 

I said earlier that I would change myself not the situations, and that is because those situations led me to where I am now and I don't know what I would do without my wonderful husband and beautiful kids. They are seriously worth the effort and I mean that in the best possible way. I am a better person because of them. I want to be better and do everything I can to love and teach them all I know and more. 

I hope that if you got anything from this that you love who you are in the moment you are in now. Before you know it another 5,6,10 years will go by and you are still stewing in the past wishing you were this person or that. It's not worth it. I definitely still have a problem with this, but it's something I really want to work on this year; loving who I am in the moment I'm in now. 

Sean's birth story

Ok so I've accepted the fact that I am just horrible at blogging. This is my year people, I'm going to get on top of it, kick everything into gear, health, life, you know the drill. I'm feeling it!! 

So if you didn't already know we're pregnant.

Ok so we were pregnant, I got you didn't I? So this last year has been pretty full of adventures. This pregnancy blindsided me; with Lexi it was easy peasy, Sean's I was sick for almost half of it and the other half I felt so exhausted I didn't really want to do anything. I had that burst of energy during the second trimester but as soon as he popped out my hips started hurting I couldn't really exercise and I was getting stressed trying to catch up with my very active toddlar. 

27 weeks

Swelling weeks before I had him

38 weeks and last picture of me pregnant.  

I from day one of this pregnancy had been preparing for him to come. I started to read my HypnoBirthing books and practice my relaxation breathing. I did everything I could to make our experience the best that it could be. I really planned it out; I had a doula this time and Nick was way more prepared as well. 

 At a little over 20weeks we went in and found out he was a BOY! We were stoked! 

Lexi didn't know what was coming but baby is baby and she loves babies both real and unreal. We started getting her prepared by pointing to mommies belly and telling her that baby brother is in there and she went with it. She loved baby brother from then on. 

The holidays came and went, and January 22nd was the day to look forward to, and had been for 9 months. 

Nick started his 6 week rotation on the 5th of January, he would be 50min away from us and had our only car. Luckily my parents are sorta close to us so it wasn't to far of a drive if something happened. That first week went fast and no baby, and a good thing cause we hadn't had the baby shower yet and didn't have anything for him. The following Monday I had an appointment that my mom took me to and after I went shopping for the things we didn't get at the shower. I was in high gear and wanted everything cleaned and ready for the baby. Little did I know after cleaning and preparing all day Tuesday that I was nesting, I mean I knew I was a little bit but I had no idea he was coming. Tuesday night I felt like I really needed to get to bed, I had finished my spicy dinner, cleaned a little more and went to bed. Wednesday January 14th I woke up at 5 am to a contraction. I thought it might just have been a Braxton hick but I had to go to the bathroom so I got up and it felt like I peed a little and when you're pregnant that happens a lot, no judgment! So I thought really nothing, got back in bed and ten min later I had another contraction. This time I sat up and started searching water breaks and learned that it's not always a "pop" and a gush of water. An hour later I decided to text Nick and he said to call the midwives and ask them what they want to do. After getting off the phone with the midwives I was sure we needed to go in so I texted him to come. While he was on his way, I started to get everything to the door. I was still having contractions every ten min, Lexi was still asleep, and I was pretty relaxed not really worried about anything. Lexi finally woke up so I went to get her and immediately I knew something was wrong because she didn't look good and she looked like she was going to throw up. The whole time before Nick got here she wanted to be held and didn't really want to eat anything. The contractions I could tell were getting a little closer I started breathing through them; Lexi looked so concerned and would hug me. Finally Nick got here, put things in the car, took Lexi to a good friends and headed to the hospital. When we got there the lady must have been confused because she asked us why we were there. I told her I was in labor, and she started asking me all these questions and then took us to a room. She told me to get dressed in that o so beautiful gown and the nurse will be right in. After the nurse got there my contractions were probably 4-5min apart. I asked her if they were going to set up the tub(since I was planning on a water birth) and she said let me ask you these questions. Kenzie finally got there and immediately knew I was in labor and started helping me through the contractions. Still the nurse is asking me questions, still no IV in and no tub. They came back and said they needed to do a test to see if my water broke, which I already knew after the morning of going to the bathroom a trillion times that it had. Once they established that it had my contractions were now 2 min apart and still no IV. Now the nurse was hurrying to put the IV in and I was in the most uncomfortable position ever, so finally I was able to move and get into what I felt was the perfect position to be in to bring our baby boy to this world. 

Kenzie did an amazing job in getting me in this position and quickly getting the perfect music on and then to top it off a great essential oil that was absolutely amazing. Kenzie did a great job in getting Nick and my mom involved and helping me through each surge. The whole time I felt surrounded by amazing people. 

After what didn't seem like very long I was pushing on my own, no one told me to push and count I was just doing it, I felt amazing and with each push I could feel my baby coming and after about 30min of pushing,maybe, Sean came into our lives 9lbs and 21inces long.  We got to the hospital at 9:30am and he came at 11:51am. It happened so fast. No I didn't get the water birth I wanted but I wouldn't change our experience for anything. That was more perfect in my eyes than anything I ever expected. With Lexi I didn't have the birth I wanted and that is ok, but if I could pick between the two births I would choose Sean's birth over and over. 

He is so perfect, I cannot imagine life without him. I cannot believe how much I love him, I didn't think I could love him as much as I love Lexi but motherly love is real and it definitely spreads. I love my kids so much and I love Nick even more watching him hold them and take care of them. I am so grateful and blessed to have them in my life. 

His hair and complextion are different than Lexi's, Lexi had more blonde hair and her skin was more fair. 

 

Big sister meeting brother for the first time, she wasn't sure what to think. 

Such a fun photo shoot and such a sweet moment captured. Lexi seriously loves him, she always wants to give him kisses and help me change him. 

How could you get angry after being woken up at 3 in the morning to this sweet face? 

Left-Lexi right-Sean similar but different at the same time. 

My two favorite men! 

Ugh so cute!!! 

Thank you for reading if you got all the way through this long post. 

Our current daily routine

Not that any of you who read this really cares about our daily routine, but I like writing this stuff down so I can look back and remember what we did. And because it is now warm outside and just beautiful everything we've done is now different.

So Lexi has been waking up around 6:30 am since it is spring and that lovely sun hit right about that time. So I usually just let her play in there by herself for half an hour and get up at 7. Then it's breakfast time. We really are not big breakfast people, Nick usually just eats a bowl of cereal, Lexi maybe eats a bite of her waffle, this morning she ate some of Nicks cereal and some of my new favorite Nature Valley breakfast biscuits, and some yogurt. So she kinda just shares with us.
Once we are done with that we start getting ready to go on our 4 mile walk. At about 8:30 we head out, now we live pretty close to the Jordan River Parkway trail so I head over there and go north up the huge hill, down the huge hill and walk and walk and walk until I almost get exhausted and turn around, at about 2 miles. I am going to work up to at least 8 miles hopefully, which means I will be going earlier. So anyway when I get home Lexi is pretty pooped and its about nap time anyway so I put her down for her nap.
Yay it's ME time! So right now I am starting a relaxation time about 20 min. everyday which helps me just get ready for the day and usually I will put on a facial mask, right now it is the Freemans chocolate strawberry clay mask, which can I tell you is absolutely heavenly, if you like chocolate that is. So I will let that dry while I relax then when it is over I will jump in the shower and then I will eat my 1st snack of the day, usually an apple and yogurt or apple and peanut butter, yum my favorite, all while I am watching The Price is Right, or my t.v. show that I didn't get to see the night before. I also am writing my blog write now so if I happen to have the computer I will look at emails facebook yada yada you know the drill.
 Lexi then gets up around 12 depending how tired she is and I will make some lunch. Currently she is liking my turkey dogs which if you haven't tired them just do it, so much better than the beef ones, in my honest opinion. She will eat chicken nuggets sometimes and a string cheese, I usually will give her some applesauce too, and fruit if we have it. I will sometimes eat a salad with bbq tuna or salmon or turkey dogs with mustard and cottage cheese, and one big glass of water, I always have a big glass of water with my meals and snacks, just so I am getting enough water, which right now is about 132 oz. everyday.
After lunch I usually put on Frozen(shocker) or the little mermaid or Nemo which are the ones she likes right now while I clean a part of the house. I probably will write something else of how I keep our house so clean soon. When I am done with that the movie is still playing and Lexi has already started to move to other places in the house so I will go and watch it with her so she finishes it. By the time the movie is over it's time for another snack so I get Lexi some gummies or some fishy crackers. I will eat cottage cheese or some kind of fruit with my water.
Then its playing time again; I will play a little with her and sometimes we will go out play on the playground and get the mail, or go and see the horses which are down the street from us, and we love going to go see them, they seem pretty happy to see us too.
 Time for dinner, now this is the most important meal in our house seeing as that's the only normal meal we get, these are the meals that I plan for, I usually will plan a months worth of meals and its just dinners, so I will make dinner around 5 and we will eat around 6 or 6:30. I will probably do another post and things that we eat for dinner since there is so many different meals. After dinner we will most likely be sitting in front of the t.v. watching something until 8 when Lexi goes to bed. At 8 we will brush her teeth, change her, put her into her pj's, read scriptures, pray, and lay her down. Then it's our time to talk watch a movie or t.v. show or just relax. Then we will be in bed around 10:30 pm until we wake up and start all over again. The cycle that never ends, a good cycle(sometimes.)

Overboard!!!

So this last weekend was pretty crazy. For those of you who don't know my family traded their old boat in for a newer updated one, actually pretty nice looking. So Saturday my dad wanted to take it out for a test drive to get used to it since it is SO different from the last (not sarcastic.) This boat doesn't have a propeller it has two air things like a jetski. So you think well riding a jetski is a piece of cake, well I tell you it is no piece of cake by all means, this thing has so many different things you need to worry about controlling I couldn't believe it. While we were taking it out it wasn't too bad until we got out of the NO WAKE zone and started going fast, it just sounded so different. My anxiety kept getting worse, all I could think of was bad things, I couldn't help it. Then it stopped like really just turned off, so my dad turned it off and back on; it turned on, then we started heading back to the no wake zone. We were coasting a little bit and thats when the wind started blowing pretty bad, and off agian. I thought my heart stopped, we we're being blown by the wind right into the rock wall. We didn't have anything to help stop it, no control, so in order for us not to crash our new boat into the wall my sister had to jump in with her clothes still on (no bathingsuit on,) she couldn't hold it by herself so my brother jumped in from the back and helped stop it there. O MY GOSH if I wasn't already terrified from the sound it was making earlier. Luckily there was someone else that was coming in, and saw that we were having trouble and came to our rescue. They towed us to the dock, which was such a sweet thing to do, they were trying out their new boat too. After the longest probably 30 min. of my life we decided to pack it up and go home. O Boy was I glad that was over. Hopefully my dad will figure it out before our Lake Powell trip in a month!

New singers worth listening to

This is a little new for me, but I have listened to a few new people that I am LOVING! I would like to share them. 

First is Lucy Hale, ok so not only is she a talented actress but she has a beautiful voice, I will link her video. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHz9qFCZOvs

Second is Jamie spears. So we all know her older sister Britney, she is well known for pop music, but Jamie has come out with country OMG actually she is really good, course I love any country music but I really mean it she is great!  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdbyfWseIiw

Third Cassadee Pope. Any of you that have watched the voice know Cassadee she was I think the 3rd seasons winner. I loved her on the show and most of her songs are my favorite. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJZOeTnvq4k

Fourth is Danielle Bradberry. Also a Voice winner the season after Cassadee and I just love her voice so genuine country I will be listening to her for a long time. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BylRObFjmaE

Fifth is Madilyn Bailey. She is so good guys, she sings all the popular songs but usually a lot softer and mostly acousticly which I just love! 

These next ones are youtube singers that sound amazing, I'm always trying to find good music to listen to, for the most part I like listening to everything. 

Alyssa Bernal

Max Schnieder

Boyce  Avenue

Tyler Ward

Sara Niemietz

Michelle Montezeri

Megan Nicole

Alex Goot

Kinna Grannis

Sam Tsui

Christina Grimmie 

Like cheap but stuff that really works?

DIY products that i love.

So I have been trying some diy stuff laity because who has the money to go and buy it? I surely don't.

So fist thing is dry shampoo.

I mixed
1/2 C cocoa powder
2T corn starch
few drops of essential oil (I used peppermint)

Seriously this smells like a york peppermint patty, and it works! This is also a mix for darker hair since I have dark auburn hair it only makes sense. I think it's baby powder instead of cocoa powder for lighter hair. I put this mix into a saved sour cream plastic tub, I put it onto my hair with an old bronzer brush, works like a charm.

Second thing is Beach waves

3t. any type of gel, I used some cheap kind
3t. sea salt
1/2 t. coconut oil
1C water I used hot water to help melt the oil

Mix/shake good in a bottle, I started out in a bowl then transfered it into a mason jar. I put it into a little spray bottle but I suggest getting a bigger one. spray onto either dry or damp hair and tada beachy waves.