Ok so I've accepted the fact that I am just horrible at blogging. This is my year people, I'm going to get on top of it, kick everything into gear, health, life, you know the drill. I'm feeling it!!
So if you didn't already know we're pregnant.
Ok so we were pregnant, I got you didn't I? So this last year has been pretty full of adventures. This pregnancy blindsided me; with Lexi it was easy peasy, Sean's I was sick for almost half of it and the other half I felt so exhausted I didn't really want to do anything. I had that burst of energy during the second trimester but as soon as he popped out my hips started hurting I couldn't really exercise and I was getting stressed trying to catch up with my very active toddlar.
Swelling weeks before I had him
He is so perfect, I cannot imagine life without him. I cannot believe how much I love him, I didn't think I could love him as much as I love Lexi but motherly love is real and it definitely spreads. I love my kids so much and I love Nick even more watching him hold them and take care of them. I am so grateful and blessed to have them in my life.
38 weeks and last picture of me pregnant.
I from day one of this pregnancy had been preparing for him to come. I started to read my HypnoBirthing books and practice my relaxation breathing. I did everything I could to make our experience the best that it could be. I really planned it out; I had a doula this time and Nick was way more prepared as well.
At a little over 20weeks we went in and found out he was a BOY! We were stoked!
Lexi didn't know what was coming but baby is baby and she loves babies both real and unreal. We started getting her prepared by pointing to mommies belly and telling her that baby brother is in there and she went with it. She loved baby brother from then on.
The holidays came and went, and January 22nd was the day to look forward to, and had been for 9 months.
Nick started his 6 week rotation on the 5th of January, he would be 50min away from us and had our only car. Luckily my parents are sorta close to us so it wasn't to far of a drive if something happened. That first week went fast and no baby, and a good thing cause we hadn't had the baby shower yet and didn't have anything for him. The following Monday I had an appointment that my mom took me to and after I went shopping for the things we didn't get at the shower. I was in high gear and wanted everything cleaned and ready for the baby. Little did I know after cleaning and preparing all day Tuesday that I was nesting, I mean I knew I was a little bit but I had no idea he was coming. Tuesday night I felt like I really needed to get to bed, I had finished my spicy dinner, cleaned a little more and went to bed. Wednesday January 14th I woke up at 5 am to a contraction. I thought it might just have been a Braxton hick but I had to go to the bathroom so I got up and it felt like I peed a little and when you're pregnant that happens a lot, no judgment! So I thought really nothing, got back in bed and ten min later I had another contraction. This time I sat up and started searching water breaks and learned that it's not always a "pop" and a gush of water. An hour later I decided to text Nick and he said to call the midwives and ask them what they want to do. After getting off the phone with the midwives I was sure we needed to go in so I texted him to come. While he was on his way, I started to get everything to the door. I was still having contractions every ten min, Lexi was still asleep, and I was pretty relaxed not really worried about anything. Lexi finally woke up so I went to get her and immediately I knew something was wrong because she didn't look good and she looked like she was going to throw up. The whole time before Nick got here she wanted to be held and didn't really want to eat anything. The contractions I could tell were getting a little closer I started breathing through them; Lexi looked so concerned and would hug me. Finally Nick got here, put things in the car, took Lexi to a good friends and headed to the hospital. When we got there the lady must have been confused because she asked us why we were there. I told her I was in labor, and she started asking me all these questions and then took us to a room. She told me to get dressed in that o so beautiful gown and the nurse will be right in. After the nurse got there my contractions were probably 4-5min apart. I asked her if they were going to set up the tub(since I was planning on a water birth) and she said let me ask you these questions. Kenzie finally got there and immediately knew I was in labor and started helping me through the contractions. Still the nurse is asking me questions, still no IV in and no tub. They came back and said they needed to do a test to see if my water broke, which I already knew after the morning of going to the bathroom a trillion times that it had. Once they established that it had my contractions were now 2 min apart and still no IV. Now the nurse was hurrying to put the IV in and I was in the most uncomfortable position ever, so finally I was able to move and get into what I felt was the perfect position to be in to bring our baby boy to this world.
After what didn't seem like very long I was pushing on my own, no one told me to push and count I was just doing it, I felt amazing and with each push I could feel my baby coming and after about 30min of pushing,maybe, Sean came into our lives 9lbs and 21inces long. We got to the hospital at 9:30am and he came at 11:51am. It happened so fast. No I didn't get the water birth I wanted but I wouldn't change our experience for anything. That was more perfect in my eyes than anything I ever expected. With Lexi I didn't have the birth I wanted and that is ok, but if I could pick between the two births I would choose Sean's birth over and over.
Big sister meeting brother for the first time, she wasn't sure what to think.
Such a fun photo shoot and such a sweet moment captured. Lexi seriously loves him, she always wants to give him kisses and help me change him.